under the impression that i matter....correct me if im wrong

Well ....

the past week has been a wonderfully wierd one , soo much has happened , and the beauty of the whole thing is that i dont even know the half of it...

starts off as normal as u can imagine, waking up to find yourself somewhere else than you thought you would be, not physicaly but mentally and all that crap..

well i guess it doesnt help , bieng in that new place and screwing up something you would want to  go perfectly , well it doesnt but i recovered from it , took some corrective steps ,

worked out pretty well but i was still there , in that place...

soo i decided, whats the best thing to do when your in a different place... well actually get up and go to another place, soo thats just what i did, i packed my bags got on , 2 amazingly boring and unpredictable flights, and next thing you know im in bangalore,

ofcorse i had my reasons , i mean, i had to go and get into an educational institution, for my higher studies ,, wasnt hard at all , walked in , waited in a que , gave a piece of paper , told them i was a christian, and that i hate bst , in different words though bt yeah then that was it , all i had to do was give them 50500 Rs and i was in .... simple  aint it

and then wow i was back here in old, heat swelled muscat,  just two more plane rides weee yeehaaaw, splish splash , and i was here again , to wallow in self pity like i always do, sick aint it...

well this sounds like a big diary entry soo to avoid accusations im going to say something that is, if not totaly, then atleast slightly funny and may be also a little offensive, but only to all you really emotional types..

have you ever heard of that saying ... 'dont worry about your future , whatever happens happens , and most of the time it happens for the best'

no?hmm must be cause i made it up now but yeah this is just a variation from the thing that people say to you , usualy when something bad happens ,

have you ever wondered what a huge load of crap that is man , i mean come on , how in gods name can that be true....

imagine this scenario ok , yeah cool word dont u think, but yeah imagine this

the tvs on in a living room in iraq, a really really screwed up living room , with all the sofas upturned , and the curtains all chared and in pieces , shattered windows, and the family there nearly in tears , because the whole house is falling apart but yeah the tvs intact and working , now the fathers standing there, wondering what to do nw, where to go on with life , how to live in a place like this????? and the lady on the news comes on and says ....
(in english for your benefit)
"this is breaking news ,we request your attention please , the mosque has been bombed , and all the surrounding buildings have been destroyed......"

the father turns the tv off and falls back agaist the fallen sofa , and begins to cry , weep, 

at that moment someone walks in, this happy go lucky person,with a huge smile on his face and he says
" dont worry , whatever happens happens for the best , and therefore everything is going to be fine dont worry about it ...."

what do you think the father is going to get up and say to that man???

well im not going to tell you , i shall leave it to your imagination , but if you imagine a bullet , a hole and a lot of blood , id think you were right ....

frickin optimistic people , pick your moments man please...........